Inspiration from a Stranger

I constantly had emotions of solicitude, fear, guilt, sadness, and terror welling up from the inside of me. It was the gut wrenching feeling from my stomach and pain in my heart I feared the most. Many times, I thought about committing suicide and tried to figure out ways to do it; on a day when it was really bad, I was seriously considering it when my phone rang. “Where are you?” he asked – “Stay there, don’t go anywhere else”.

I have been affected by depression and distress for about ten years . That was when I suffered a total mental breakdown and lost everything I had. I ended up in a house where I stayed on the gutters edge.  I would hide inside the van for most of the day, being too afraid to go outside in case I had to talk to people. My brain simply stopped working. I couldn’t even get it together to make a cup of coffee let alone make a meal.  It was so bad I hated waking up in the morning and often wished that I hadn’t.

About ten minutes later, there was a knock on the  door. I went to open it and there was a stranger standing there. “Can I come in?” was all he said. That man simply talked to me about his life and what had happened to him. He told me how it took a long time to overcome his problem step-by-step and having faith and the belief that he would some day become well. I could see the relations in my life and began to accept myself as being one of the many people that suffers from a mental condition.

The stranger inspired me in two ways. Firstly, that if he could re-build his life, it was proof that I could also get my life back together again.

Secondly, that this man valued me sufficiently enough for him to leave his work and come to see me.

This meant I must have been of some value to another person and I didn’t have the right to end my life. And it doesn’t stop there. People suffering from mental conditions need support and encouragement to keep working on themselves. I’ve been using pressure points on myself to make the feelings of depression go away within a few minutes and I no longer have thoughts of suicide.

Bless God

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6 thoughts on “Inspiration from a Stranger

    1. You can actually talk to him if you think he can learn from you.
      No one is gonna wish for depression but people find themselves in depression
      But they actually need someone to bring them up like the stranger did

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